| Writer's Block: Gone but Not Forgotten |
[Dec. 4th, 2008|01:33 pm] |
They should bring back Serenity. I must admit I didn't get into the show until like the end of the season and I had to play catch up, but if that show was on the right station it would have lasted a few more seasons and rightly so, Joss Whedon is an amazing producer of fine television. That or Salute Your Shorts. I'm sure Budnick would be the counselor by this time. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2008|02:39 pm] |
| [ | Where I'm at |
| | my apartment | ] |
| [ | How I'm feelin |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | What I'm hearin |
| | Dio // Holy Diver | ] |
Well, I got that job i mentioned last time. It is absolutely amazing. [Check out this website if you want to see where I work.] So it looks like I'm going to be an Orlando resident for some time to come. (Visitors are always welcome).
Things have been great otherwise too. No stupid mistakes, I'm fulfilling most of my new years resolutions one at a time, I'm picking up golf, I read the most amazing book in THE world, I'm working on another one, writing a lot, just being busy all around i guess. I love it. Life is good. I am now going 4 wheeling. good day.
ps: read "I hope they serve beer in Hell" by Tucker Max
pss: I just found out and I'm devastated. Rest in Peace Roy Scheider. May you join Jonathan Brandis in a Seaquesty heaven. The DSV will forever remain in my heart. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2008|04:18 pm] |
So it's been a week since the incident that inspired me to start over and rethink the way things were going. It's been a very productive and professional week. I'm still a work in progress, but this week has me thinking that more is possible. I've got some amazing opportunities on my plate to look at now that I have nothing to lose and I'm starting over. All have their ups and downs, but hey, what on this earth doesn't.
Right now I think my best bet is this full-time deal at this ritzy country club. I'm pretty excited about it if it works out. I'm a bit overwhelmed by it on the front end, but I definitely think it's somewhere I could fit right in and adapt quickly like I usually do. I'll tell you what though, If I take this job, I'm probably not going to go home; well, go back to Massachusetts for a good while (if ever).
Weird. As is Life.
Until next time. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2008|02:32 am] |
| [ | How I'm feelin |
| |  pensive | ] |
So I had another one of those days again. One of those days where you did something really stupid the night or day before and you feel like half a person days. One of those days where you feel like you've hit rock bottom and the only place to go is up, but it may or may not get worse before it gets better days. I don't want these days to come around anymore. I've had too many of them. I've always kinda known the reason for most of these days coming around too, but never wanted to face it. I think it's time I face it. This is when I usually get the you're only 22 yada yada. Well, I thought about that a lot recently. Somebody said something to me the other day and it kind of put things in perspective and I've come up with this.
I've lived more than most 22 year olds.
This is purely metaphorical. Every 22 year old has lived 22 years. I just mean I've had a lot more life experience that a lot of others. Some may take this the wrong way, I don't mean to say most of the others I know my age haven't lived. I just think that I've experienced a lot of the things that others shouldn't have to experience. My life has had so many amazing highs and probably twice as many paralyzing lows that I get confused about how things are actually supposed to be. It's almost like I subconsciously seek out the trouble so that I can work myself out of it. Just like my mother always says I have this way of falling in shit and coming out smelling like a rose. Well, when am I finally going to stop falling in shit!? The first thing that came to my mind is stop drinking the way I do. Most of the serious downfalls in my life came about from incidents where I was drinking. So I am going to stop.
People know me as being a party animal. It almost seems like partying became my favorite hobby. I've made a lot of amazing friends being the drunken social butterfly that I am, but i'd say most of them we're made when I was drinking myself under the table. That's also the reason I've lost many friends or at least pushed them so far away that it's going to take a lot to get them back into my life. I'm a totally different person when I'm like that. And it's not the person I want to be. Sure, I've had my fun. But I think it's time for that to be done. The fact that now I've put this in writing makes me believe that I can do this.
Now to find another hobby. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2007|02:56 pm] |
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buckeyes are back in it!!!!!!! |
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[Dec. 1st, 2007|06:31 pm] |
so i had one of those days today. one of those days where you absolutely do not feel like going to work so you call out and just do whatever your heart desires. well today i wanted to sit on my ass, relax for a few hours, then work out ALL day long. i went and played soccer with some guys and then did a voluntary sprint workout. what am i, nuts? i just might be. its december and it was like mid 70s and gorgeous out so it felt good to just be outside running around. then i just laid out on the field for hours enjoying the sunset. it was great.
it's days like today where it truly makes it hard to decide where my heart lies and where i belong when my program is up in january. i have a month to either find a job/apartment here (or somewhere in florida), or start planning to head home, live with my parents for awhile again, and find a job up there for the time being. then i could try and move back down when something comes up. part of me says one, part of me says the other. i wont be working for disney anymore though, that's for sure. not for a long while. sorry mickey.
big games on tonight though, gotta watch em. either oklahoma has to beat mizzou, or pitt has to beat west virginia - if either of those happen the OHIO STATE BUCKEYES are back in the national championship. w00t.
im out.
later |
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| bah |
[Nov. 26th, 2007|03:44 am] |
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horoscopes are just there to piss you off and remind you of shit you already know on the inside. eat me astrology.com |
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[Nov. 19th, 2007|11:19 pm] |
effin a man. effin a.
so my roommate slash best friend down here in orlando just quit the program and went home the other day because he got a minor league hockey deal. now i have my own room, which is nice. but no wingman. shit.
women here still have no idea what they want. and they play more games than i ever did. which is tough to do.
and i'm broke until thursday's paycheck living off of pasta, bread, milk, protein shakes, and the girls next door.
what a life...
ps: read "I hope they serve beer in hell." by Tucker Max
If it doesn't brighten your day with laughter, then at least you'll know what i'm probably going to be like when i'm 30. |
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| can't sleep |
[Nov. 17th, 2007|02:31 am] |
It's like 2:30 am. I can't sleep. I have to be back at work for in-service training at 7:15. That's basically like monthly physical training that Disney lifeguards have to do. We have to do 4 hours a month. It's crap. I'm going in for two hours and then I have to go back in at 3:30 later tomorrow for a shift.
Basically, I'm going to in-service, then straight to Epcot to get shitfaced and watch the buckeyes game at the ESPN zone. Then I'm going back into work (probably drunk). It's going to be a big fuck you to the Yacht & Beach Club for scheduling this madness.
And here I go with the myspace surveys, we'll see if I ever make it to bed now. I'm probably better off if I don't sleep. YEESH
On a side note, I saw Trapt and Fuel last night. It was amazingness. Goodnight. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2007|08:51 pm] |
"Today we salute you, Blackout Drinker. When others are sipping on their beers or mixed drinks, you are funneling, doing kegstands, or drinking out of a bucket. When you hear the phrase"You won't," you know it will be another blackout night and you're happy about that. While most people chase shots with juice or soda, you just use weaker liquor. Waking up on tables, in parking lots, or on rooftops isn't uncommon to you. While most people wait until night to start drinking, you say no. You will set your alarm in order to get some shots in before noon or take a beer with u into the shower to start your day. You know that your liver is more charred than a piece of grilled charcoal, but you drink anyway. You enjoy hearing stories about what u did the night before and you're no longer surprised about the fucked up things you do. So crack open an ice cold bud light (or 30) blackout baron, because if it wasn't for you, we would all look like a bunch of pussies..."
I thought that was funny. Reminds me of Westfield. Thanks for showing me that Lynnejob.
Anywho, I'm still working on finding a "real" job down here in Orlando. Nothings come up quite yet, but I guess if I want to stay here - at least for now - I have to keep working at it. We'll see where it takes me.
Got a fun night ahead and another fun day off tomorrow! I'm going to see Trapt and Fuel at the House of Blues. That being said, I am off. It's playtime. |
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| time to leave the college mindset behind? |
[Nov. 3rd, 2007|09:25 pm] |
| [ | How I'm feelin |
| |  pissed off | ] |
I hate that after college everyone just up and expects you to stop acting your age. I'm fucking 22 and it seems like every road I look down for the future is the terminal be-all and end-all of where my career and working life is going to take me. It's weird and it isn't right. It's bad that i'm already older than I care to except. Oh well, not a whole lot I can do about that now. Time to build up my resume to look sweet and then hit the streets.
I'll tell you one thing about living outside of Massachusetts that's a whole lot different (besides the fact that everyones much more friendly). The partying and drinking is much different and widley less acceptable after college. Massachusetts really does drink a whole lot more than a lot of places. The thing that weirds me out is, I don't feel like I drink a ridiculous amount when I'm back in Mass. Except like the last couple weeks or senior year. That was a binge and a half. But the little that I drink here, in comparison to others, makes me feel like an alcoholic. Es no bueno.
Don't get me wrong, the partying here is crazy as hell. But, you have to make it happen or try to find it. It's not like Westfield or Amherst where you can just walk down a street and find like 7 different parties. And it's not like there's an irish pub or local watering hole every mile or so to watch a game at. Although I did find a boston-family owned restaurant & tavern like 10 minutes away. It's the same family that runs Kelly's Landing in Weymouth. They have Boston sports on all the time and the Boston beer selection is the best I can find down here. Unless I make the drive to the restaurant that The Shipyard Brewing Company owns down here. I love that place.
The women now are a totally different breed as well. Maybe it's just the ones that are in Orlando. But, to me it seems like before graduating college, women just want to settle down. So that they start life already taken and settled. But if they graduated single, It's impossible to get them now. Now they're all career oriented and want to be single until they're ready to settle. It's like the roles are switched.
Sorry, I've had a bad couple of days and there's a lot on my mind. Who knows where I'll be in January now. Maybe back in MA. Who knows. |
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| recent surveyyyy |
[Oct. 17th, 2007|09:58 pm] |
1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Hell Yes
2. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with?
Hmm I went out with a group for Tiff's birthday
3. What is irritating you right now?
drama
4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
when i woke up this morning, breakfest of champions
5. Who is the last person you held hands with?
tiff
6. Do you have any famous friends?
yes
7. Last words you said?
Is there any more of that pizza?
8. Have you ever kissed anyone named tom?
nope
9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
i dont even really like my bed here. But I'd have to say my stereo system.
10. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
tattoos yea. ive always wanted to try piercing my eyes, but i never did it
11. Who is in the room with you?
sergio
12. What are you wearing on your feet?
socks and shoes
13. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
checkered slip on vans
14. Who was the last person (not including family) you told you loved them?
i tell a lot of people i love them when im drunk. doesn't exactly make it true. probably the ex though.
15. What was the last thing you ate?
wheat things
16. What were you doing before this?
making a real post on here
17. What's the closest item near you that is white?
paper plate
18. What instant messaging service do you use?
aim
19. What's the most abnormal thing you've done in the past 4 days?
its abnormal for me - taking a serious chance
20. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
my wsc lacrosse sweats to bed every night
21. What is the last movie you watched in theaters?
halloween
22. What do you currently hear right now?
boys like girls album
23. When did you last take a picture with someone?
there were many pictures taken last night
24. Where's your favorite place to be?
the beach i guess
25. Where did you sleep last night?
my bed
26. When was the last time you left your town?
i have two towns. but i left shrewsbury in august... for good?
27. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
i'm not wearing a shift. bow chicka wow wow
28. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
patriots tickets
29. Where was your default picture taken?
buffalo wild wings - lake buena vista
30. Why did you pick your background?
i made it for a blog i had awhile ago but never pursued to really update
31. Missing someone right now?
yea
32. Do you want someone you can't have?
i'm not sure if i can have her or not yet, so i'll leave this an open ended answer
33. Where is your number one person on your friends list?
Can you tell I took this survey from someone's myspace?
34. What's the story behind your headline?
The modern machismo was meant to eventually become a place/magazine for the man's man. Kinda like a grittier version of Maxim, FHM, Stuff, etc... None of that fashion bullshit involved. Just beer, women, sports, and man's man kinda shit.
35. Summer or winter?
summer
36. Describe the background on your cell phone?
main street magic kingdom all blurry like that dave matthews album cover with the spinny ride
37. Describe your pillow case:
off white with leaves
38. Describe your eyes?
really freakin blue
39. Describe what you're wearing:
white shoes and socks and my lifeguard shorts
40. Do you like candles?
yea, but they aren't allowed in my apt
41. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes
42. Do you sleep naked?
sometimes
43. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
yea
44. Do you burn easily in the sun?
if i havent been out in the sun for awhile yea
45. Do you like cocky people?
sometimes
46. What's something you wish you could understand better?
taxes
47. What did you do last weekend?
went to cocoa beach
48. When was the last time you met someone new?
today
49. Are you a good cook?
hell yea
50. What's your ringtone?
its saigon from entourage
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| 6 days off. w00t |
[Oct. 17th, 2007|09:38 pm] |
| [ | Where I'm at |
| | my apartment | ] |
| [ | How I'm feelin |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | What I'm hearin |
| | boys like girls / five minutes to midnight | ] |
Heyo. Just finished up an 8 day stretch of work. Rough.
Now I have 6 days off. Awesome.
I'm going back to Niceville, FL (where i grew up) to go to the Mullet Festival this weekend. It's a fish, not just a haircut. Uber Awesome.
Anyway, Cheers go out to joe and james for the two comments on the last one. Good to know I'm not the only one still occasionally dropping by this thing. Hope ya liked the update.
Disney news: I went to Epcot the other night after work for the Food & Wine Festival. I'm convinced the margaritas at epcot are making me an alcoholic. Jefferson Starship was playing which was amazing. I saw the beach boys there a couple weeks ago too, but come on - what beats hearing mickey thomas belt out we built this city blitzed on margaritas and german oktoberfest beers. Epcot is no longer a park to me, its a 1.5 mile long bar.
Advice: Read "Into the Wild" By Jon Krakauer (Spelling?) and go see the movie. It's life changing. I read the book a long time ago and loved it, but props to Sean Penn for a great screenplay.
[ Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up ] - Boys Like Girls |
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[Oct. 5th, 2007|01:06 pm] |
| [ | How I'm feelin |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | What I'm hearin |
| | mars volta // the widow | ] |
So after completely forgetting I even had a livejournal, here is my long-not-so-much-awaited return. As breif as this return could be, I figured I could at least update the format a little bit and maybe my default pic.
What has happened since my last real update in 2005 you might ask? Well, far too much to post really. My life is completely different. First off, I'm a college graduate. I moved out of massachusetts and down to Orlando, FL. I'm presently working for Walt Disney World, which is pretty damn fun. No more A&F or TGIFriday's for me. At least for now anyway.
I don't really talk with many of my old friends anymore, which sucks most of the time. But then again, I don't talk with some of them for very specific reasons. A lot of the "glue" we had as friends that kept us all together has broken loose over time. People have moved away, party houses have dispersed, relationships have ended, there have been fallouts, many have graduated and moved on, etc... I guess that's life though. It's hitting me hard lately because college is over and it didn't end up the way I thought it would. Well, it did in some ways, but the big parts of my life didn't quite end up even remotely close to how i thought they would. All of this has made me what I am today. It's made me a stronger person. A much more cynical and, to be honest, cold person, but stronger nonetheless. I'm much pickier when it comes to the opposite sex now too. I know. Finally right? That doesn't quite mean I've grown to settle. But, I now know what heartbreak can do to a person and what it means to deal with it. I don't want to do that to anyone or myself ever again. On to searching hopelessly again.
So, this move to Orlando a way to kind of run away from everything?
Yes, and I am in no way mad or ashamed about it. I've been trying to get back to Florida since I left so many years ago. Now we'll just see how I deal with it on my own. That's about it for now, I WILL be back again soon.
- But wait, just like i used to do, here's a lyric to leave things off
[ these days are getting shorter as october falls
and with it come the coldest memories i own
and like the leaves that fall from trees my dreams come slow
as if to say to me that i should let it go ] - Brandtson |
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