the long awaited return of trottski

Writer's Block: Gone but Not Forgotten

2008-12-04T18:35:06Z

They should bring back Serenity. I must admit I didn't get into the show until like the end of the season and I had to play catch up, but if that show was on the right station it would have lasted a few more seasons and rightly so, Joss Whedon is an amazing producer of fine television. That or Salute Your Shorts. I'm sure Budnick would be the counselor by this time.

surfchrono @ 2008-02-20T14:39:00

2008-02-20T20:55:27Z

Well, I got that job i mentioned last time. It is absolutely amazing. [Check out this website if you want to see where I work.] So it looks like I'm going to be an Orlando resident for some time to come. (Visitors are always welcome).

Things have been great otherwise too. No stupid mistakes, I'm fulfilling most of my new years resolutions one at a time, I'm picking up golf, I read the most amazing book in THE world, I'm working on another one, writing a lot, just being busy all around i guess. I love it. Life is good. I am now going 4 wheeling. good day.

ps: read "I hope they serve beer in Hell" by Tucker Max
pss: I just found out and I'm devastated. Rest in Peace Roy Scheider. May you join Jonathan Brandis in a Seaquesty heaven. The DSV will forever remain in my heart.

surfchrono @ 2008-02-07T16:18:00

2008-02-07T23:31:42Z

So it's been a week since the incident that inspired me to start over and rethink the way things were going. It's been a very productive and professional week. I'm still a work in progress, but this week has me thinking that more is possible. I've got some amazing opportunities on my plate to look at now that I have nothing to lose and I'm starting over. All have their ups and downs, but hey, what on this earth doesn't.

Right now I think my best bet is this full-time deal at this ritzy country club. I'm pretty excited about it if it works out. I'm a bit overwhelmed by it on the front end, but I definitely think it's somewhere I could fit right in and adapt quickly like I usually do. I'll tell you what though, If I take this job, I'm probably not going to go home; well, go back to Massachusetts for a good while (if ever).

Weird. As is Life.
Until next time.

surfchrono @ 2008-02-01T02:32:00

2008-02-01T08:02:11Z

So I had another one of those days again. One of those days where you did something really stupid the night or day before and you feel like half a person days. One of those days where you feel like you've hit rock bottom and the only place to go is up, but it may or may not get worse before it gets better days. I don't want these days to come around anymore. I've had too many of them. I've always kinda known the reason for most of these days coming around too, but never wanted to face it. I think it's time I face it. This is when I usually get the you're only 22 yada yada. Well, I thought about that a lot recently. Somebody said something to me the other day and it kind of put things in perspective and I've come up with this.

I've lived more than most 22 year olds.

This is purely metaphorical. Every 22 year old has lived 22 years. I just mean I've had a lot more life experience that a lot of others. Some may take this the wrong way, I don't mean to say most of the others I know my age haven't lived. I just think that I've experienced a lot of the things that others shouldn't have to experience. My life has had so many amazing highs and probably twice as many paralyzing lows that I get confused about how things are actually supposed to be. It's almost like I subconsciously seek out the trouble so that I can work myself out of it. Just like my mother always says I have this way of falling in shit and coming out smelling like a rose. Well, when am I finally going to stop falling in shit!? The first thing that came to my mind is stop drinking the way I do. Most of the serious downfalls in my life came about from incidents where I was drinking. So I am going to stop.

People know me as being a party animal. It almost seems like partying became my favorite hobby. I've made a lot of amazing friends being the drunken social butterfly that I am, but i'd say most of them we're made when I was drinking myself under the table. That's also the reason I've lost many friends or at least pushed them so far away that it's going to take a lot to get them back into my life. I'm a totally different person when I'm like that. And it's not the person I want to be. Sure, I've had my fun. But I think it's time for that to be done. The fact that now I've put this in writing makes me believe that I can do this.

Now to find another hobby.

surfchrono @ 2007-12-02T14:56:00

2007-12-02T19:55:30Z

buckeyes are back in it!!!!!!!

surfchrono @ 2007-12-01T18:31:00

2007-12-02T00:25:50Z

so i had one of those days today. one of those days where you absolutely do not feel like going to work so you call out and just do whatever your heart desires. well today i wanted to sit on my ass, relax for a few hours, then work out ALL day long. i went and played soccer with some guys and then did a voluntary sprint workout. what am i, nuts? i just might be. its december and it was like mid 70s and gorgeous out so it felt good to just be outside running around. then i just laid out on the field for hours enjoying the sunset. it was great.

it's days like today where it truly makes it hard to decide where my heart lies and where i belong when my program is up in january. i have a month to either find a job/apartment here (or somewhere in florida), or start planning to head home, live with my parents for awhile again, and find a job up there for the time being. then i could try and move back down when something comes up. part of me says one, part of me says the other. i wont be working for disney anymore though, that's for sure. not for a long while. sorry mickey.

big games on tonight though, gotta watch em. either oklahoma has to beat mizzou, or pitt has to beat west virginia - if either of those happen the OHIO STATE BUCKEYES are back in the national championship. w00t.

im out.
later

bah

2007-11-26T08:43:12Z

horoscopes are just there to piss you off and remind you of shit you already know on the inside. eat me astrology.com

surfchrono @ 2007-11-21T02:40:00

2007-11-21T07:39:37Z

this makes me miss home.
if that file didn't embed right, then click this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nziSW8I6ZNU

surfchrono @ 2007-11-19T23:19:00

2007-11-20T04:24:28Z

effin a man. effin a.

so my roommate slash best friend down here in orlando just quit the program and went home the other day because he got a minor league hockey deal. now i have my own room, which is nice. but no wingman. shit.

women here still have no idea what they want. and they play more games than i ever did. which is tough to do.

and i'm broke until thursday's paycheck living off of pasta, bread, milk, protein shakes, and the girls next door.

what a life...

ps: read "I hope they serve beer in hell." by Tucker Max
If it doesn't brighten your day with laughter, then at least you'll know what i'm probably going to be like when i'm 30.

can't sleep

2007-11-17T07:47:05Z

It's like 2:30 am. I can't sleep. I have to be back at work for in-service training at 7:15. That's basically like monthly physical training that Disney lifeguards have to do. We have to do 4 hours a month. It's crap. I'm going in for two hours and then I have to go back in at 3:30 later tomorrow for a shift.

Basically, I'm going to in-service, then straight to Epcot to get shitfaced and watch the buckeyes game at the ESPN zone. Then I'm going back into work (probably drunk). It's going to be a big fuck you to the Yacht & Beach Club for scheduling this madness.

And here I go with the myspace surveys, we'll see if I ever make it to bed now. I'm probably better off if I don't sleep. YEESH
On a side note, I saw Trapt and Fuel last night. It was amazingness. Goodnight.

surfchrono @ 2007-11-14T20:51:00

2007-11-15T01:56:32Z

"Today we salute you, Blackout Drinker. When others are sipping on their beers or mixed drinks, you are funneling, doing kegstands, or drinking out of a bucket. When you hear the phrase"You won't," you know it will be another blackout night and you're happy about that. While most people chase shots with juice or soda, you just use weaker liquor. Waking up on tables, in parking lots, or on rooftops isn't uncommon to you. While most people wait until night to start drinking, you say no. You will set your alarm in order to get some shots in before noon or take a beer with u into the shower to start your day. You know that your liver is more charred than a piece of grilled charcoal, but you drink anyway. You enjoy hearing stories about what u did the night before and you're no longer surprised about the fucked up things you do. So crack open an ice cold bud light (or 30) blackout baron, because if it wasn't for you, we would all look like a bunch of pussies..."

I thought that was funny. Reminds me of Westfield. Thanks for showing me that Lynnejob.

Anywho, I'm still working on finding a "real" job down here in Orlando. Nothings come up quite yet, but I guess if I want to stay here - at least for now - I have to keep working at it. We'll see where it takes me.

Got a fun night ahead and another fun day off tomorrow! I'm going to see Trapt and Fuel at the House of Blues. That being said, I am off. It's playtime.

time to leave the college mindset behind?

2007-11-04T01:42:08Z

I hate that after college everyone just up and expects you to stop acting your age. I'm fucking 22 and it seems like every road I look down for the future is the terminal be-all and end-all of where my career and working life is going to take me. It's weird and it isn't right. It's bad that i'm already older than I care to except. Oh well, not a whole lot I can do about that now. Time to build up my resume to look sweet and then hit the streets.

I'll tell you one thing about living outside of Massachusetts that's a whole lot different (besides the fact that everyones much more friendly). The partying and drinking is much different and widley less acceptable after college. Massachusetts really does drink a whole lot more than a lot of places. The thing that weirds me out is, I don't feel like I drink a ridiculous amount when I'm back in Mass. Except like the last couple weeks or senior year. That was a binge and a half. But the little that I drink here, in comparison to others, makes me feel like an alcoholic. Es no bueno.

Don't get me wrong, the partying here is crazy as hell. But, you have to make it happen or try to find it. It's not like Westfield or Amherst where you can just walk down a street and find like 7 different parties. And it's not like there's an irish pub or local watering hole every mile or so to watch a game at. Although I did find a boston-family owned restaurant & tavern like 10 minutes away. It's the same family that runs Kelly's Landing in Weymouth. They have Boston sports on all the time and the Boston beer selection is the best I can find down here. Unless I make the drive to the restaurant that The Shipyard Brewing Company owns down here. I love that place.

The women now are a totally different breed as well. Maybe it's just the ones that are in Orlando. But, to me it seems like before graduating college, women just want to settle down. So that they start life already taken and settled. But if they graduated single, It's impossible to get them now. Now they're all career oriented and want to be single until they're ready to settle. It's like the roles are switched.

Sorry, I've had a bad couple of days and there's a lot on my mind. Who knows where I'll be in January now. Maybe back in MA. Who knows.

recent surveyyyy

2007-10-18T02:11:12Z

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Hell Yes

2. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with?
Hmm I went out with a group for Tiff's birthday

3. What is irritating you right now?
drama

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
when i woke up this morning, breakfest of champions

5. Who is the last person you held hands with?
tiff

6. Do you have any famous friends?
yes

7. Last words you said?
Is there any more of that pizza?

8. Have you ever kissed anyone named tom?
nope

9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
i dont even really like my bed here. But I'd have to say my stereo system.

10. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
tattoos yea. ive always wanted to try piercing my eyes, but i never did it

11. Who is in the room with you?
sergio

12. What are you wearing on your feet?
socks and shoes

13. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
checkered slip on vans

14. Who was the last person (not including family) you told you loved them?
i tell a lot of people i love them when im drunk. doesn't exactly make it true. probably the ex though.

15. What was the last thing you ate?
wheat things

16. What were you doing before this?
making a real post on here

17. What's the closest item near you that is white?
paper plate

18. What instant messaging service do you use?
aim

19. What's the most abnormal thing you've done in the past 4 days?
its abnormal for me - taking a serious chance

20. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
my wsc lacrosse sweats to bed every night

21. What is the last movie you watched in theaters?
halloween

22. What do you currently hear right now?
boys like girls album

23. When did you last take a picture with someone?
there were many pictures taken last night

24. Where's your favorite place to be?
the beach i guess

25. Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

26. When was the last time you left your town?
i have two towns. but i left shrewsbury in august... for good?

27. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
i'm not wearing a shift. bow chicka wow wow

28. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
patriots tickets

29. Where was your default picture taken?
buffalo wild wings - lake buena vista

30. Why did you pick your background?
i made it for a blog i had awhile ago but never pursued to really update

31. Missing someone right now?
yea

32. Do you want someone you can't have?
i'm not sure if i can have her or not yet, so i'll leave this an open ended answer

33. Where is your number one person on your friends list?
Can you tell I took this survey from someone's myspace?

34. What's the story behind your headline?
The modern machismo was meant to eventually become a place/magazine for the man's man. Kinda like a grittier version of Maxim, FHM, Stuff, etc... None of that fashion bullshit involved. Just beer, women, sports, and man's man kinda shit.

35. Summer or winter?
summer

36. Describe the background on your cell phone?
main street magic kingdom all blurry like that dave matthews album cover with the spinny ride

37. Describe your pillow case:
off white with leaves

38. Describe your eyes?
really freakin blue

39. Describe what you're wearing:
white shoes and socks and my lifeguard shorts

40. Do you like candles?
yea, but they aren't allowed in my apt

41. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes

42. Do you sleep naked?
sometimes

43. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
yea

44. Do you burn easily in the sun?
if i havent been out in the sun for awhile yea

45. Do you like cocky people?
sometimes

46. What's something you wish you could understand better?
taxes

47. What did you do last weekend?
went to cocoa beach

48. When was the last time you met someone new?
today

49. Are you a good cook?
hell yea

50. What's your ringtone?
its saigon from entourage

6 days off. w00t

2007-10-18T01:53:24Z

Heyo. Just finished up an 8 day stretch of work. Rough.
Now I have 6 days off. Awesome.
I'm going back to Niceville, FL (where i grew up) to go to the Mullet Festival this weekend. It's a fish, not just a haircut. Uber Awesome.

Anyway, Cheers go out to joe and james for the two comments on the last one. Good to know I'm not the only one still occasionally dropping by this thing. Hope ya liked the update.

Disney news: I went to Epcot the other night after work for the Food & Wine Festival. I'm convinced the margaritas at epcot are making me an alcoholic. Jefferson Starship was playing which was amazing. I saw the beach boys there a couple weeks ago too, but come on - what beats hearing mickey thomas belt out we built this city blitzed on margaritas and german oktoberfest beers. Epcot is no longer a park to me, its a 1.5 mile long bar.

Advice: Read "Into the Wild" By Jon Krakauer (Spelling?) and go see the movie. It's life changing. I read the book a long time ago and loved it, but props to Sean Penn for a great screenplay.

[ Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up ] - Boys Like Girls

heyoooo

2007-10-05T17:32:27Z

So after completely forgetting I even had a livejournal, here is my long-not-so-much-awaited return. As breif as this return could be, I figured I could at least update the format a little bit and maybe my default pic.

What has happened since my last real update in 2005 you might ask? Well, far too much to post really. My life is completely different. First off, I'm a college graduate. I moved out of massachusetts and down to Orlando, FL. I'm presently working for Walt Disney World, which is pretty damn fun. No more A&F or TGIFriday's for me. At least for now anyway.

I don't really talk with many of my old friends anymore, which sucks most of the time. But then again, I don't talk with some of them for very specific reasons. A lot of the "glue" we had as friends that kept us all together has broken loose over time. People have moved away, party houses have dispersed, relationships have ended, there have been fallouts, many have graduated and moved on, etc... I guess that's life though. It's hitting me hard lately because college is over and it didn't end up the way I thought it would. Well, it did in some ways, but the big parts of my life didn't quite end up even remotely close to how i thought they would. All of this has made me what I am today. It's made me a stronger person. A much more cynical and, to be honest, cold person, but stronger nonetheless. I'm much pickier when it comes to the opposite sex now too. I know. Finally right? That doesn't quite mean I've grown to settle. But, I now know what heartbreak can do to a person and what it means to deal with it. I don't want to do that to anyone or myself ever again. On to searching hopelessly again.

So, this move to Orlando a way to kind of run away from everything?
Yes, and I am in no way mad or ashamed about it. I've been trying to get back to Florida since I left so many years ago. Now we'll just see how I deal with it on my own. That's about it for now, I WILL be back again soon.

- But wait, just like i used to do, here's a lyric to leave things off

[ these days are getting shorter as october falls
and with it come the coldest memories i own
and like the leaves that fall from trees my dreams come slow
as if to say to me that i should let it go ] - Brandtson

surfchrono @ 2006-03-27T00:06:00

2006-03-27T05:06:26Z

The Picto-Personality Test

You are a person who is incredibly tranquil and values peace above all else.

When alone, you appreciate being able to do nothing if you want to, and setting your own pace for things.

You are laid back. Anything goes, with you.

In the future you will be happy and live richly.

Take this Test at QuizG

go to this website, register, and enjoy!!@!@!! ROFLZ

2005-10-13T01:21:39Z

surfchrono @ 2005-07-19T00:42:00

2005-07-19T04:43:49Z

even though i dont post much, i think my journal is going to go friends only for awhile. i kind of want to be done with random people knowing my business and i dont want to have to think about tailoring my entries so certain people arent offended or anything. meh. im bored. peace out, comment & add me if you want to be added.

surfchrono @ 2005-05-26T20:35:00

2005-05-27T00:37:25Z

random update. for the first time in my college career. i made the dean's list. i'm so pumped right now. and even though im broke - a certain amount of celebration is needed because this is probably the first all A-B semester or school term i've had since the 5th grade. WOOOHOO i need a beer.

anywho, i move into the new house out at school in under five days and needless to say that i am pumped for that as well.

its just too bad the weather has MAJORLY sucked lately and ive been more bored than ever before.

im out though. later

surfchrono @ 2005-04-27T19:21:00

2005-04-27T23:31:24Z

so the time of finals begins. well at least doing the final projects and the final sprint of this year anyways. im in the library way too much lately. and normally i'm ok with that. but around this time there is WAY too many people in here being all stressed out and what not.

the birthday was yesterday. it was an alright time. ended up playing drunken manhunt/capture the flag outside all around campus. it was crazy, too bad i ended up with an injured hand. (feels broken, but i think its just jammed). the real celebration is tomorrow night. i'm going to be "out of my goard" as stevo just informed me. Yea, i except people to be making me do all sorts of crazy things tomorrow night. im excited. lol.

mucho stress lately, so i need tomorrow night.

BAH no diggity

2005-04-19T13:15:34Z

so im bored again, in the library. Oh, there is so much work to be done. This week could either suck more than that fake news story on the fake cnn site about tupac being alive or be better than getting head on a coach bus while drinking a mountain dew and watching a sweet movie ON my way home from hawaii(obscure reference to the past there if anyone can catch it.) So, needless to say, i'm going into this week optimistic. As always now, it was a weekend. Like the one to come, but this one is "special". Spring Weekend is only days away and much craziness is to ensue. I am definitely pumped to see state radio, anthem, and averi. Not to mention the amount of partying that will be done. If anyone wants to come, its 20 bills (and more for alcohol). Parties all weekend and the bands play on saturday (gotta be at least 18 though)

anywho. im gonna go and get to my work. gonna be a long day and there really isnt much thats gonna cheer me up.

surfchrono @ 2005-03-29T17:37:00

2005-03-29T22:42:42Z

Don't you just hate it when you have a group for a project and you are the only one that shows up in the library to do it. sweet.

Really bored in the library right now and i figured i'd post in here. I hate not having a computer set up at my house yet, and even if it was set up - not having internet right now kinda sucks. But oh well, better just get used to being in the library. Been in the house almost a week now and its been good though. Probably going to have my first party there this week sometime, should be a good time. Anywho, little update, i'm gonna go get me some subway. eat fresh ya'll. later.

>"When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Do we really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, wake up slow"

random post.

2005-03-09T01:52:25Z

So i haven't updated since december, and it seemed like a good a night as ever to post. (seeing as how its a blizzard outside and the tv is getting old.) I've been on myspace and ihatethisclass.com constantly and keep forgetting i have this.

Been pretty crazy these last few months. I guess i would say that i'm indifferent on the way things are going right now. Some stuff is a lot better, and a few things that happened just ruined a lot. But that being said, everything is clearer. I've been more honest with my feelings and feel like i'm communicating with friends and family a little better. Not to mention, the ease of this semester has let me relax a bit. But then again, my school sucks and its a dry campus so im in trouble. Next year I have a house with some of my friends, its sweet and i can't wait to move in. We should be moved in by early june, so if anyone ever wants to come up, lemme know.

Spring break is next week, I'm looking forward to going home and seeing everybody that will be around. But I think I'm more looking forward to just being home and around my fam, I've been getting a lot closer with them lately. I should probably get as much work in as possible too. I need money. bad. damn college budget.

I'm thinking about getting a new tatoo with my tax check when it comes in though. who knows. I've been making designs for months.

ps: Jersey girls are amazing.

. .watchin the days burn out like a cigarette. .

2004-12-12T23:44:28Z

just about christmas time again, fall semester is winding down. finals are kicking me in the ass. my life lacks any sort of spontaneity whatsoever and i hate that. i miss the feeling of wanting the next day to come just to see what it holds. this vacation will be good, i mean i know i'll be working a lot, but it will just be good to get away from school and see what i really want, cause im not sure college is it anymore. and if it is, im not sure if i am in the right place. i wanna go on a trip, alone, just a way to sort of find myself. grr but that means i need money. shit. i need the beach, but its winter. shit. maybe its nice in southern california right now. maybe i wish i was back in san diego.

i just feel like i'm lying to myself for some reason. holding myself back from something more. or just missing something i had.

still feeling lost.

i'm gonna have to pull an all-nighter tonight to get all of this work done. maybe i should clean my room, smells like alcohol from last night. this half empty (or is it half full?) bottle of whiskey looks so tempting to me right now. ahhggg

surfchrono @ 2004-08-22T02:28:00

2004-08-22T06:45:58Z

its like 2:30 am, and i felt like not sleeping before i have to work at noon.. just finished watching point break. i fuckin love that movie. and if you've seen it, you know why. might just end up not sleeping, it was one of those nights.. looks like movies straight through the night. little thicker than water, then i was thinking maybe rules of attraction.. i dunno we'll see.

oh well. i hate timing. and just not knowing. i feel so lost. and i probably shouldnt.